Sullivan had been looking at the defendant only obliquely up until the climax of the trial.
Yearning for a display of fear, devastation, regret, or some other proximate emotion, she now devoted herself to the study of her begetterâs features and was distressed to see that his default look of supreme indifference persisted even despite the looming verdict.
Earlier, she had seen that heâd made his way to the defendantâs table as if walking toward a refrigerator for a routine glass of waterâbriskly, blandly, and terribly unperturbed. She remembered seeing that face and gait before the performances sheâd been forced to attend as a childâthe man presenting himself before thousands of critical spectators as if âfuck upsââa term Donovan used to categorize many of the women whom he fired for the crime of musical imperfectionâwere impossible. Such a level of assuredness was unprecedented in Sullivanâs mind and undoubtedly intimidating to one who seeks to help condemn such a tranquil foe. He seemed indifferent not only to the trial itself, but also to the one whoâd launched the trialâhis very own daughter. This fact, although heavily magnified by the media, seemed to have no effect on the now billionaire whatsoever. But as Sullivan scrutinized him, she half expected the man to at some point turn in her direction with either pleading or resentful eyes.
NoâŚ
He remained as detached from his status as her father as he did the threat of the coming verdict.
While studying his profile, she noted once again as she had before that he looked different than he did in her childhood. He had at some point before the trial apparently gotten a nose job himselfâthough his was constructed so that the bridge wasnât a bone-straight ski slope decline like Sullivanâs, but a thick-bridged, squarish result that was a stark difference from the convex, six-shaped nose he and Sullivan both previously had. Despite this altered feature, the air of suaveness caused by his elite expression and his white, slicked-back hair, Donovan was not an attractive man. However, as the majority of his strongish face was covered with a glistening closely-cropped white beardâalways ideally groomedâmost of the flaws of symmetry were neatly obscured by this secondary sexual characteristic. At 6â4 and 290 pounds he was a large man, but his face demonstrated more contour than roundedness. He was nearly fat, but he had long since taken to wearing tuxedos that were a trifle too small as a strategy to maintain his excess bulk just as butchers maintain the flesh of ground meat inside the casing of sausage. His stomach binder assisted with this as well.
Although his face held the angles of masculinity, his eyes were soft, not predator-like as one would imagine a person accused of his crimes to possess, but somewhat melancholy and perpetually bright in an inordinate gloss that shone even brighter during his performancesâand his sexual assaults.
As Sullivan took in her donerâs visage with a minute grimace, she began to recall the many variations that face had shown in the past. She recalled her first indistinct feelings of confusion arising from the spontaneous artificiality of its multifarious displays, as though there was no intervening movement of muscle, but instead a rapid jump from one species of expression to another in a local process of physiognomic saltation. The excessive, teary-eyed bouts of laughter that always exceeded justification, the almost volcanic displays of superficial anger used to frighten employees into obedience, and the way he would forcibly jut his face out toward his children and acquaintances with undue excitement to prove that he was a fun father and friend⌠Still, even during the trial that would confine him indefinitely, that face, so capable of transmogrification, maintained its eerie, glossy-eyed stillnessâa profound vacancy of emotion.
Sullivan swallowed angrily when the judgeâs return from deliberation inspired little change in the defendant.
Donovan turned his head resignedly upward toward the semi-bald, gown-wearing figure as he limped toward the bench. The defendant gazed upon his magistrate with still, fish-like eyes that looked but didnât focus, the corners of his mouth seeming to ease slightly downward in a look of absurd neutralityâof an almost clownish normality. Despite the unremarkable expression, its juxtaposition against the dire circumstancesâwhich demanded twists of trepidationâcaused it to seem an almost monstrous display well worthy of the coming tabloids. Along with Sullivan, reporters and media folk noticed the visual stasis and, despite his gaze differing from the standard features present in the so-called psychopathic-stare, enemy news outlets used this indifference to accuse him of harboring the disorder.
As Sullivan was not a psychologist, she wasnât willing to entertain such fanciful speculations regarding his psychological orientation. He could have been sane or insane, a psychopath or empath, an autist or a schizophrenicânone of that would have mattered to her at all. She wasnât interested in the man himself; she was interested only in justice being enacted upon the man. The âreasons for his transgressionsâ were quaternary, leveled firmly behind exposing him, incarcerating him, and justifying her lifeâs dedication, respectively. She would let the theorists and philosophers dissect the albatross once liberating herself of the burden.
âApologies for the delayâŚâ the judge said, clearing his voice and triggering a brief coughing fit. âSorry,â he proceeded before beginning to shuffle through a sheaf of papers acquired from the jury, continuing in his announcement all the while. âThe court has received a message from the jury indicating that theyâve reached a verdictâŚâ
There were indistinct vocal stirs in the audience that were silenced by the judgeâs initiation.
Judge: âAlright, jury membersâŚbefore we continue, I want to be sure a foreperson has been elected.â
Juror: âYes, sir.â
Judge: âGreat⌠and uhâŚthe adjourn number please…?â
Juror: â77â
Judge: âAnd has a verdict been reached with regard to each count of the information?â
Juror: âYes, sir. We have multiple verdicts.â
Judge: âAlright, you can hand all your paperwork over to the bailiffâŚâ
Juror: âAlright, sir.â
Judge: âCan you hand that (stack of papers) over to me pleaseâŚthank you.â
Judge (after receiving the verdicts): âThe defendant will rise to face the jury.â
The defendant stood up immediately, and with neither confidence nor fear, but as if he was rising from a regular and unremarkable meal. He proceeded to turn absently toward the jurors after being instructed to harken to its verdicts.
Foreperson: âState of California versus Donovan HoffmanâŚas to the first count of the information, Terry Krueger, we the jury find the defendant, Donovan Larry Hoffman, guilty.â
Showing no sign of hearing the news, the defendant maintained his eerie calm and seemed oblivious even to the nervous members of his defense who sat with him on either side of the table. One suited man, Sullivan noted, had been afflicted with a severe case of restless leg syndrome which caused the water in the glass beside him to seek escapeâa little starting to touch the rim once the first indictment was observed. On his right, the defendantâs chief lawyer, a woman named Joan L. Kitt, feigned extreme composure. But Sullivan could tell by the increasingly aggressive chewing of her worn-out gum (which caused her mouth to take on a near blur by the time the verdicts were read) that the woman, experienced as she was, wasnât completely unruffled.
Sullivan had been disappointed when finding out that Joan was to lead the defense, as they had been friends up until the point of Sullivan going public with her evidence. Indeed, Joan had seen the talent and resolve in Sullivan early on and had elected to be Sullivanâs supervisor in law school, even giving her the recommendation that helped secure her current position at Sunny Side Law. Being only a little older than Sullivan (in her mid-thirties) and taking her job with the same deadly seriousness, the two had seen reflections of each other in themselves. And as Joan was the only woman that sheâd personally known who was about as tall and as bull-headed as her, she felt a certain comradery that extended their kinship of experience. When Sullivan found out that someone she revered so highly would be joining the ranks of a degenerate now accused of raping and (or) assaulting several women, she felt just as betrayed by Joan as she had by her neglectful parents.
Sheâd confronted Joan and ruthlessly interrogated her after her decision to defend Donovan was made public, but Joanâs responses were evasive and dismissive, and the cognitive dissonance Sullivan observed left her with a sick, sinking feeling that made her lose hope in all things human. And she felt sicker still knowing that the only reason why Joan was being âusedâ (as Sullivan thought of it as) was because she was a womanâa blatant tactic that Donovan employed to lessen his misogynistic image.
Feeling a wave of hatred toward the traitor whose anomalous motives she could not discern, Sullivan nudged her dark-rimmed, authoritative spectacles to their proper placeâwhich had fallen somewhat seemingly by the force of her glare aloneâand refocused her attention on the judge, who allowed his glasses to remain perched on the tip of a bulbous, high-colored nose riddled with blackheads and sebum.
Before proceeding toward the verdict, the judge licked a finger suspensefully as he turned a page in his sheaf of stapled papers.
âAs to the second count of the information, Bobby Schwartz, we the jury find the defendant, guilty.
As to the third count of the information, unknown woman, we the jury find the defendant guilty.
As to the fourth count of the information, unknown male, we the jury find the defendant, not guilty.
As to the fifth count of the information, Josh Brown, we the jury find the defendant guilty.
As to the sixth count of the information, Sarah Bosh, we the jury find the defendant not guilty.
As to the sixth count of the information, unknown female, we the jury find the defendant not guilty.
As to the seventh count of the information, Jeremy Scroggins, we the jury find the defendant not guilty.
As to the seventh count of the information, Samantha Thompson, we the jury find the defendant not guilty.â
In the court of Santa Monicaâs judicial district, the state of California versus Donavan HoffmanâŚverdict form C, Donavan Hoffman is found not guilty ofâ
Overpowering the judgeâs voice, raucous applause broke out immediately on the defendantâs side of the courtroom. This outbreak prompted Donovan to loosen his silk tie before rising, in the same casual way as before, to a stand. In an instant, the null expression turned toward one of the fluorescent lights attached to the ceiling and made an astronomical leap to one of almost teary-eyed sublimity. The look was made even more significant by the accompanying movements, which included the fingertips of his right hand pressing lightly against his broad chest and the left raising in a saintly gestureâthe better to assist the modulations and facilitate the coming vocal celebration.
âYou are no longer under any conditionsâŚyou are free to leaveâŚâ the judge said, but the baritone had already begun his operatic exertions by the time the judge uttered these words of dismissal; he was only a split-second late of requiring order in the court.
Wide-eyed and open-mouthed, Sullivanâs neck went slightly beyond its 90-degree allowance in the direction of the triumphant figure, her astoundment being recognized by exactly no one as everyone present began observing, in silence and wondrous awe, the impromptu performance of one of Americaâs most celebrated virtuosos.
There was no piano present, but with the buildup of his intricate movements and gestures in lieu of the typical reactions of victorious defendants, the spectators began to imagine the accompanying theme.
âAve Maria
Gratia plena
Maria, gratia plena
Maria, gratia plena
Ave, ave dominus
Dominus tecum
Bendicta tu in mulieribus
Et benedictus
Et benedictus fructus ventris
Ventris tui, lesus
Ave MariaâŚâ
***
âThe papers made quite the fuss about your little performance,â Joan said, sitting at a large oak desk in the semi-darkness of her poorly lit office. She had already finished her paperwork for the day and was now checking emails on her computer, one of the eavesdropping streetlamps just outside the shut window affording her a clear visual of her computerâs keyboard. Donovan, who had just arrived for their pre-scheduled severance talk, was annoyed that she was giving more attention to the computer than him. âYouâve even got a few supporters enthusiastically proclaiming that a âvoice like thatâ couldnât possibly be guiltyâŚâ
âThat was nothing,â Donovan said as he leaned forward, his previously obscured face now exposed by the glow of the streetlamp which gave his still features a yellowish, waxy cast. âJust wait until my performance next summer in Milan⌠Iâll have a full orchestra behind me, specially selected by yours truly. Iâm always at my best when being backed by the most gorgeous of the tender sex⌠Perhaps thatâs why I was able to beat this case; it was all because of your intimate understanding of my situation. JoanâŚI thank you.â
âI canât believe the case is finally over,â she proceeded, oblivious to the compliment and feigned gratitude as her fingers and eyes kept working at the screen and keyboard. âYour little opera did get a lot of attentionâŚbut, aside from the near-crazed reactions from the many women who are still baying for your blood, the look on your face during the trial was what excited the media the mostâŚâ
âIs that so?â
âYeaâŚsomething about a new iteration of a âpsychopathic stareââ she continued as she hacked away at her keyboard. âThereâs a shot of your daughter glaring at you as if youâre the living plague after the verdict was read. But most of the tabloids took the time to sensationalize your look much more than they did hers. All becauseâŚâ she continued, stopping for effect and briefly analyzing him to confirm her coming statement. âYour expression was no different than it is right now.â
âMy expression?â
âYeaâŚâ Joan said distractedly, refocusing on the structure of an email she was working on. âI think itâs all bullshit media hype. Probably best you avoid the products of the media just as much as you plan on avoiding the actual mediaâŚbut if youâre curious about their feelings about this so-called expression of yours then some keywords on the articles Iâve seen areâhmm let me pull it up hereâŚokay: Cold, detached, emotionless, lifeless, blank, empty, callous… Basically, what this all seems to mean is that a substantial subset of the world now believes that you, Donovan Hoffman, are a bona fide psychopath.â
âPsychopath?â he said with breathless surprise, as if the accusation was less a shock than a revelation. âA bit contradictory when considering the verdictâŚâ And then he put a hand to his mustache. âHmmâŚeven if that is the case, then I suppose thatâs just one of many available personality types that Mother Nature or Godâwhichever you preferâhas blessed me with. And if this accusation is even remotely true, then Iâll say it right here and now that if being a so-called âpsychopathâ has allowed me to achieve the lifestyle that I have and has helped me evade what seemed to be an inevitable prison sentence, then maybe Iâm better off for it.â
Joan laughed at this response, but her humor was quickly diverted by a relevant flash on the screen that gave better light to her more prepossessing features. âNever thought youâd be the type to buy into that B.S.,â she said, continuing to sift through her sundry emails. âTheyâve been saying similar things about me for representing you. But I get titles like âsociopathâ âtraitorâ, and âself-hating misogynistâ. Of course, I donât pay mind to any of these and neither should you.
âModern psychology is presented as being âempiricalââand therefore valid,â Joan elucidated. âBut as itâs on the softer end of the scientific continuum, we can assume that the falsifiability of its claims is commensurately vulnerableâsubject to inevitable appraisal and eventual dismissal. Thatâs why I dropped out of my Clinical Psych Ph.D.âdisillusionment. Iâd rather be a liarâsorry, a lawyerâthan a quack.â
âHmm,â Donovan wondered, taken as always by her incisive observations.
Then perhaps that makes you less an innovator than a woâ(woman was what he was going to say, but he remembered to moderate himself), worker, as it is well known that true innovators nearly always initiate themselves as âquacksâ before earning more coveted titles.â
âUnfortunately,â she responded immediately. ââQuackeryâ doesnât pay the billsânot in the capitalist society that we live in⌠Itâs a dog-eat-dog world here. I canât afford to be an intellectual martyr.â
âPay the bills ehâŚ?â Donovan said, leaning back in his chair as he gazed at Joan with low, disinterested eyes. âAnd I assume thatâs why you insisted on such a considerable fraction of my net worth for accepting this job?â
There was a reflective silence before Joan responded. âYour daughter believed in meâŚâ she said, stopping mid-type and looking regretfully at the almost lethargic figure before her. âButâŚIâve been dealing with B-list celebrities and so-called social media âinfluencersâ for far too long. If I want to keep my way up the greasy pole that Iâve chosen to climb, sacrifices have to be madeâŚâ
âEven if that means ascending by nefarious means?â Donovan pressed, showing more interest in Joan by his words than his expression.
âUnder normal circumstancesâŚI would have seen to it that you spent at least a decade kicking rocks in one of the lots at one of Californiaâs not-so-finest penitentiaries. But, Iâll admit, a multimillion-dollar bonus is a difficult proposition to rejectânot to mention the publicity I gained from representing you… Sorely needed for leveling up in the game of law. I still care about your daughter way more than I give a shit about youâŚbut my own ambitions take precedence.â
âI seeâŚâ Donovan said, sighing as if in slight disappointment.
âAnd I just so happen to genuinely believe that your boorish interactions with women tend to be to their benefitâin most cases, at least. In representing you, Iâve researched all your accusersâmost of them (regardless of talent) come from nothing and go from 0 to 99 in a matter of moments just by sucking your cock or licking your ass. Itâs a devastating but rewarding trade-offâlike getting a six-figure settlement for a degloving incident at a minimum-wage job…â
âYour agreement with me on that point is one of the main reasons why I hired youâŚâ he responded, sounding more pleased than he looked. âIt begs the question: are my so-called âvictimsâ better off as nobodyâs with their purityâor âmoralityâintact and with nothing to credit themselves with except that purity and morality? Or are they better off as mental amputees of sorts, robbed of their âinnocenceâ but with a status and income that would have otherwise been unattainable had they clung to said morality?
âThe answer can go either way, of course, but of those who choose the second, it makes you wonder if theyâre doing their descendants a favor by setting them up with the means gained from satisfying myâŚâ he paused to find the right words before Joan, still multitasking, finished Donovanâs sentence for him.
âYour impossible libido,â she said before sending off one email and starting another.
âSureâŚâ Donovan conceded with a smile-free chuckle. âBut if we are to follow my observation to its logical conclusion, then we can assume that by sacrificing their ingrained notions of morality, my âaccusersâ canâand doâgain the status and wealth necessary to lessen the chances of their daughters and granddaughters having to resort to prostitution-like behaviorâlet us call itâto ascend the social ladder.â
He leaned forward and admired Joanâs finer angles before proceeding. âIt may be disgusting or immoralâŚbut they do what they do for hierarchical ascendanceâand if their children are already born high, then there would be no need for them to engage in the low task of selling their bodies for profit. In this context, I suppose you can say that âsucking my cockâ or âlicking my assâ is an evolutionarily advantageous pursuit.â
âIf you say soâŚâ Joan said distractedly, having at some point lost the thread of Donovanâs elaborate justification. Joan is, indeed, intelligent, but is a much better talker than listener.
Annoyed by her continued neglect of his presence, he narrowed his eyes as he watched this ambitious woman actively carry out her duties. Now, in quiet antagonism to her presence, he began seeing her less as an admirable ally than a decorated hamster on a golden wheel. âNow that I think about itâŚâ he said, leaning forward and resting his elbows on the desk before interlacing his fingers and resting his head on his thumbs. âThese so-called victims of mine are just like you⌠The only difference is they use their bodies to climb up your âgreasy poleâ rather than their mind. The coveted âmoralityâ is lost in either scenario, donât you think?â
âI donât thinkâŚâ she said firmly, continuing to type. âI do⌠If an ingrained sense of âmoralityâ as you call itâobsolete in my mindâconflicts with decisive and gainful action, then is it worth heeding at all? No⌠I made a conscious decision to let all that go a long time ago.â
âCould it be thenâŚthat you, too, are a fellow psychopath?â
Joan laughed dismissively before responding. âPsychopath or notâŚjust be sure you keep your habit of secrecy,â she said as she searched for the elusive PrtScr button. âIf word gets out about you threatening the families of the jurorsâŚboth of us will be right back in court facing a somewhat less than favorable verdict than before.â
âCertainlyâŚâ Donovan responded. âUnder normal circumstances, âbribingâ jurors simply wonât workâno matter how much you offer them,â he explained. âThatâs why I instructed Walter to have his lackeys do what they did. Because most people value others more than they do material possessions, you canât reliably âbribeâ those who have distinguished moralities. But you can threaten themâor those closest to them in our case.
âThe question of morality becomes immaterial when you present the moralist with a⌠âprofound dilemmaâ shall we say. The evidence of this claim is in the outcome of our trial. Had the jurors we coerced voted guilty, then all of their first-degree relatives would have been at risk of being surreptitiously slaughtered. Thatâs their dilemma: âWhat is more immoralâlying in court, or allowing all of your nuclear family members to die? The answer is obvious, but I just want to sayâin contradiction to your previous gripeâGod I love psychology. If you have good instincts then even a layman like myself canâŚuhâŚmaneuver, letâs say.â
Intrigued by the angle of the discussion but at a loss of a counterargument to the latest point, Joan continued typing as if she hadnât processed what heâd said.
âAnd I have to askâŚâ he continued. âDo you feel no guilt at all about co-conspiring with me in thisâŚuhâŚjoint enterprise?â
âI needed a big winâŚâ she responded simply. âAnd your proposal sounded promising. If it wouldnât have been me, you would have hired some other woman to do it, so the outcome was inevitable. But the short answer isâŚâ she proceeded, fondling her computer mouse. âMoneyâŚtalksâŚâ
Donavan raised an ankle over his left knee. âBut why the pursuit of even more wealth when you were already well into seven-figure range before? You donât have a family or children⌠And there doesnât seem to be any noble ideal youâre working toward that requires tens of millions of dollars. SoâŚwhatâs the goal? Iâm genuinely curiousâŚâ
âWellâŚâ she said, now maneuvering her mouse for a series of skillful clicks before continuing to type. âI could turn the question back at you and ask you whyâdespite your abundance of sexual conquests, both earned and unearned as far as Iâve gathered, do you feel the need to physically possess every attractive woman you encounterâŚWhatâs the goal there?â
âHmmâŚâ he was caught off guard at this sudden reflection and assumed a look of contemplation before responding with the first and only answer that came to his mind. âTruth isâŚâ he proceeded, shrugging his shoulders. âI could take the Darwinian stance and say, âsurvival and reproductionâ, but itâs been quite some time since Iâve elected to have a child. I could say because it âfeels goodââbut so do countless other things that I donât feel the need toâas you sayââpossessâ. I suppose I keep doing it becauseâŚwellâŚitâs because I want to and because I can.â
âYou do it because you can?â she said, dissatisfied by the response. âThatâs a shitty answerâŚâ
âBut it is an answer,â he said. âAnd rememberâŚyou never gave a response to my questionâŚâ
She was silent for a while before uttering a recap. âWhy, despite already having wealth, status, and no childrenâas of nowâdo I continue to expand? Well, maybe because I canâŚâ
There was silence after this, but Donovanâs shoulders began to tremble lightly in response to a coming guffaw, and he dropped his head so that Joan was able to see the balding around his crown.
Although she was at first confused, the laughter was contagious, and by the time his face was tossed up so that she could see his trembling uvula and the white hairs protruding from the dark caverns of his nostrils, she found herself reciprocating this humor.
âThe hellâs so funny?â she laughed in spite of herself.
âMy my myâŚâ he said, wiping a tear before arising and locking the entry door. This had been the first time heâd visited her office and was doing so as a mandatory token gesture for her contribution. But with her oblique confession of her displayed Machiavellianism, he felt more than justified in carrying out his most recent fantasy. âI donât know why Iâm only just realizing this,â he proceeded. âButâŚyou and I are just the sameâŚkindred spirits, as they sayâone insatiable for pussy and music, and the other for wealth and successâŚâ
âYour point is?â she said, reassessing her computer monitor after assuming that he was about to leave.
âMy point isâŚâ he proceeded, unexpectedly moving back toward the desk but now standing near the chair where she sat instead of taking the visitorâs seat. âYou are an appleâŚâ
âA what?â Joan uttered, shocked both at the strange declaration and his sudden approach.
âAn appleâas inâŚan apple-shaped woman.â
She stopped typing and glowered at him.
âThere arenât a lot of women like youâapple-shapes that isâwho I find attractive.â
âWhat are you talking about?â she asked as if repulsed by his words.
âIâm talking aboutâŚnarrow hips; wide, fleshy waists; and ill-proportioned, rail-thin legs that miraculously support broadened shouldersâall topped off with a magnificent potbelly.
There was only silence, as she, now appalled and distracted from her duties, glared at him.
âConfused?â he said, starting to move closer toward her, his hands jammed in the pockets of his blazer. âYou seeâŚas youâre already aware, I have an obsession with the many variations of the female form, and hourglasses and slender pear-types usually do it for me⌠But youâre one of the first apple-shaped women that Iâve ever been so attracted to.
âTo be honestâŚâ he continued. âIâve resented apples my entire life, but never have I seen an apple-shape soâI would say well-proportioned, but thatâs not the caseâwell-structured as yourself. Even through your clothes, I can tell you seem to embody all the typical features of an apple, but theyâre molded in such a way that intrigues rather than displeases meâthey exist by necessity rather than abundance. Sure, youâre top-heavy and your waist isnât slim, but your softly rounded bellyânot quite flat, but not pudgy eitherâfascinates me extremely. And sure, your ass is flat, but your legs are quite conspicuously elegant by comparison. And your chest and facial featuresâŚthey seem softened to an almost angelic degree by the excess fat you carry around your neck and shoulders…â
âHow dare youâŚ!â Joan spat.
âAh, ah, ahâŚâ Donovan said, grabbing her by the upper arm as she tried to storm toward the door. âRememberâŚjury tampering is a grade A offense. You and I will both end up right back in that courtroom if word ever gets out.â
âIs this a fucking joke?â she said before looking closely at him and observing first-hand the variation of the âpsychopathic stareâ heâd been accused of possessing. She proceeded to rip her arm away from his grasp before making a beeline for the exit.
He moved with a quickness that seemed impossible for his size and almost playfully stepped in front of her, preventing her from reaching the door.
âGet out of my wayâŚ!â she shouted.
âIâll say it once moreâŚâ he reasserted, walking toward her alert, backing form, maintaining his stone-faced expression, as though looking upon his hands during a routine wash. âJury tampering is a grade A offense⌠âYou and I will both end up back in the courtroom ifâŚword gets out.â
âYouâre out of your mindâŚ!â
âIâve lived a full lifeâŚâ he went on. âMusic, fucking⌠I donât do what I do for reputation or gain like you, I do it only for the pleasure. I do it because I like it. Being this way is what got me this far. The want of nothing more than music and women… The relentless pursuits of thoseâhobbies, letâs call themâhave gotten me everything that I have in life after coming from absolutely nothing. And you just happen to be one of the features of my hobby. One of the things that I covetâthat I have been covetingâsince the start of this trial.â
âIâll tell!â she blurted out in a fit of desperation, continuing to back away from his suddenly giant, slowly advancing form, nothing except the observative streetlight aware of what was happening. âYouâll go to prison!â
âIâm in my sixties nowâŚâ he responded. âIâm oldâŚand have nothing to lose. Send me to prison, death row evenâŚIâll have a lifetime of memories to reflect on until facing the needle. Those memories, I suspect, will sustain me to the end. But youâŚwhat are youâŚ30 something?â
âThirty-sixâŚâ she spat automatically.
âYes, indeed⌠With your relative youth and apparent ambitionâŚIâm not sure if youâd last in confinement.â
âWhat are you trying to say?â she said, continuing in her slow backpedal.
âSo, just give me what I want, right now, without complaintâŚand then we can part ways and let bygones be bygones. After all these years of repulsion and curiosityâŚI finally want to try something new. I want a bite of your apple and to devour the coreâŚâ
âYouâre sick!â
âAs I already said,â Donovan continued, part of his face now darkened by a shadow. âNormally, I find your type unacceptable, but after so many pears and hourglassesâespeciallyâone begins to develop moreâŚexotic tastes. “
âYouâre insane, Iâm leaving,â she uttered before having her arm snatched once again as she made another attempt to flee.
Iâm just carrying out justiceâŚâ he said. âYou did betray my daughter after all, as well as all the innocent, pure, and âmoralâ women who relied on her to send me to the gallows.â
âBut youâŚyou donât even love her!â Joan shouted in a panic as she tried unsuccessfully to pull away. Like Sullivan, she, too, often stayed behind late at work, and both her assaulter and she understood that staff security and her firmâs employees had long since gone home.
âThat observation is irrelevantâŚâ he said in a 61-year-oldâs admonishing tone. âThe facts are what matter. You betrayed a fatherâs first-born daughter, you acted in a selfish way that was detrimental to countless innocent others and beneficial to yourself, and you seem to show no contrition whatsoever for your actions⌠Allowing a âbeastâ like me to remain free without even a hint of remorse comes with its consequences. Consider it justice for my daughter and for all those future victims who will succumb to my phallus.â
âYou wouldnâtâŚâ she said, a layer of sweat lubricating her entire body, her mouth stuck in a conspicuous tremble.
âOhâŚ?â Donovan proceeded before engulfing her like the lid of a Carnivorous plant. âSweety⌠I already did.â